One of those days....

Let me preface this post by stating how much I love my kids and even as much as I complain I can't imagine how boring my life would be without them!

Most days I am totally ok with the cards I have been dealt. More specifically, I'm ok with Kyle and the struggles and triumphs that we go through together. Because thats all I know. He has always been...Kyle. Well, I am only human and there are days that I think to myself...why me? (I know, what a selfish thing to say) What if he was typical? What would he be like? How much easier would my life be? I try and put things in perspective and think how truely lucky I am that I was entrusted with Kyle, but it certainly doesn't make it any easier on those days.

WOW....

Am I the only idiot that didn't know a baby kangaroo is called a "joey"??? We were at a animal exhibit the other day and it said "kangaroo joey". So naturally I said, "Cody look, this baby kangaroo's name is Joey"! This little girl started laughing and told her friend "that lady thinks the kangaroo's name is Joey!" My mom kindly explained to her 27 year old daughter that a baby kangaroo is called a joey. WOW. I felt like the biggest idiot.

Polly Wanna Cracker?!

Cody has begun to repeat EVERYTHING I say. But he has seemed to only pick up the bad things I say. The other day we had a conversation that went something like this:

Me: Cody, come over and get your clothes on! (repeat 3x)

Cody: Ugh! Mommmy Im so irritated! You're sooo annoying! I quit!

I mean...I guess I need to watch what I say because that is pretty much what I say and in that order too! :)

Flushed Away!

This is what the plumber found after 5+ hours and 3 days of snaking the toliets several times. Cutting a hole in the bathroom wall to get to the pipes. Sending a camera through the roof. And last but definitely not least sticking his hand in the toliet! Thanks to one of my children they have once again caused my dad to question why he had us move into this house! :( Sorry dad! Are my kids the only ones who cause so much damage? I kinda feel like they are!

final score: 4 boys 1 girl

We had pics taken a few months back when we were all together for Christmas. My brothers are pretty funny and my favorite times are when we all get together and laugh! Its the best! For a long time I felt jipped (is that a word and if so did i spell it right?) because I didn't grow up with a sister. Well, I can proudly say I'm glad I didn't have a sister and that I have the brothers I do! They all make me laugh and I love them for it! Love u guys...Jas, Chris, Trav, and Brett!

My Mr. Perfect

Its been almost 2 1/2 years since the divorce. I can't believe it sometimes! When I think back to how much I have grown not only as a mom but as a woman, its amazing! I feel so good about where I am in my life and have never felt better about who I am! I can honestly say I am HAPPY! What a great feeling!



On to the good stuff! I have dated several guys in the past year or so and am grateful for all the experiences, good and bad! It has made me realize that I will NOT settle for less than the best the second time around. I made a list a while back of my Mr. Perfect. It started as a joke and after dating some not so great guys it was really looking like a joke. I was beginning to get discouraged and not so sure I was gonna find my Mr. Perfect. Then October came and I met the most amazing guy. He is my list and so much more!



I didn't think a man existed that could be so accepting of my situation, more specifically my kids! Lets face it, my kids are a handful (probably more like 2 handfuls, maybe 3)! He is so great with them! The transition has been so smooth and natural I couldn't have imagined it any better! Any guy who OFFERS to babysit MY kids while I go to work gains major points in my book! :) I feel so grateful my boys have taken so well to him and have him around as a male influence! Its been nothing but possitive!



He makes me laugh whenever I talk to him. He laughs at me and thinks I'm funny. He gets me. He makes me feel pretty all the time, not just sometimes. He drives here to Palmdale from Pasadena (an hour + drive) at least 3x a week just to sit on my couch and watch American Idol or Greys Anatomy cuz I have my kids and no sitter, and NEVER complains. He likes hangin with my best friend and her husband. He is the nicest guy and so easy going. He is the best dad to his boys and always puts them first. He doesn't get irritated with me cuz Im a horrible decision maker. He appreciates and acknowledges all the hard work I put into being a mom to Kyle and Cody. He still gives me butterflies everytime he knocks on my door. He makes me smile just thinking about him. The best part about James is he makes me so HAPPY!



I'm so lucky to have found a man who treats me AND my kids so well. Here's to My Mr. Perfect existing! WOO HOO!

Bitter Sweet

My kids are pretty much my life. I eat, sleep(or dont sleep), and breathe Kyle and Cody. They go with Mike every other week for 3 days, and now I look forward to that much needed break! Cody has been giving me, his mom who eats sleeps and breathes for HIM, a tough time lately. So I asked Mike if he wanted to take Cody for a few extra days. Mike doesnt get to spend quality one on one time with just Code (which I think he needs). I didnt think his dad was going to agree to this but he did! I was excited until I looked at calandar. He will have Cody for Easter :( My Code will not be here, in my house with me, to run downstairs to a basket full of goodies from the Easter Bunny. As much as he frustrates me and I could use the extra break...Im so sad. These are the days that the effects of the divorce really hit me. Mike has reassured me that he will do something nice for Cody but it just isn't the same.